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When I Killed God
When I Killed God
By Jane Tawel
April 24, 2021
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While it’s true that as a child,
there were incidents, bad things that happened against my will,
(because of course, a child is born with a soul, but not a will);
and while my exposure to events I accidently lived,
were pale in comparison to those children over there,
that child that lives in a different yard than I did;
it was still a thing that happened to me early on,
that some adults who thought they loved me,
killed God.
In fact, like you maybe,
I still have nightmares about that one person,
who abused the God in me.
And even the ones who thought they loved me best
by force-feeding me the formula of God-in-a-baby-bottle,
even those dear ones gave me some allergies,
and I have yet to heal from them.
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But I can’t complain if I compare.
I lucked out that the pendulum swung,
